Wednesday, April 29, 2009

The Beginning

On Monday, April 13, I found a lump. That has to be every woman's fear, and I found one. I wasn't doing a self examine. I just happen to find it. I wasn't sure what to do. I had a doctor's appointment in a couple of weeks so I thought I would wait but a friend told me to go ahead and call and have it checked out. I made an appointment and my doctor felt it and told me to get a mammogram. I had the mammogram and the radiologist didn't like the look of it. I got an appointment with a breast specialist and she didn't like the look of it and I had a biopsy done. The results came in on Monday April 27 that the lump was cancer.

I have had A LOT of information given to me and I am still trying to sort it all out. I was told I had the most common type of cancer which was Infiltrating Mammo Carcinoma. Which I can't find that term on any website but I think that is means the same as Invasive Ductal Carcinoma.
The doctor seemed confident that it is treatable and curable but I have to take the long road to get there.

I have decided that I will have a bi lateral mastectomy. It sounds very extreme to do this but this surgery will greatly lower my chances of the cancer coming back. I do NOT want to have to go through this again.
Prayer requests:

1. Pray for Kevin because he has been so wonderful. I think God is letting me know that Kevin is that great of a person.

2. Pray for Faith and John Derrick so they understand there will be some changes going on but mommy still loves them.

3. Pray for other women who are finding a lump and are about to start this same process I am going through. Pray that the lump will be benign but if it is not, please pray for their peace.

The next part I am going to write is a bit intimate about my body so you can skip the rest if you don't want too much information but if you are curious read on.

I have never liked my breasts. I developed early and they have been a pain so I am not that sad to lose them. Since having children they have grown to a DD and my back hurts and I can't run and I don't look good in clothes.I met with a plastic surgeon on Wednesday to discuss my reconstruction options. I will have silicon implants put in (which I find a bit ironic because I have always laughed at women who wanted implants). They will start by putting in extenders to build up my muscles. They will slowly fill them throughout several weeks and when I get to the size I want and I am comfortable, they will be exchanged for the implants. This is the only part of the whole process that is interesting to me because I will have a new body. I may change my mind after going through everything but I will be smaller and hopefully more comfortable.


  1. What an amazing attitude, trust in God, and outlook you have! You will have such a story and a testimony once you are on the other side. I have been praying fervently for you since I heard the news. Love you!

  2. Big hugs and many prayers to you ~ ((())) My family has the BRCA-1 genetic mutation that leads to breast cancer. All three sis's have the gene and my mom, aunt, cousin. My two sis's and aunt have had mastectomies, cause they have cancer one was reconstructive and she looks amazing!! I am happy to share anything I can about her reconstruction and my sisters surgery, recovery and all the good and bad that comes with it as far as pain and what to really expect that htey dont really prepare you for. I found that with my sis's they wanted to know what to expect, versus it being sugar coated so they were best prepared so am happy to do so if you would love someone to talk to that has been there. Sadly one of my sis's passed away two weeks ago but the BRCA-1 is more rare and sadly aggressive, be positive because SO many not only beat it but live LONG healthy lives!! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. You can visit my blog at or my facebook at if you visit my blog go to the April archive, there is alot there on my sis :) My other sis has both breast cancer and ovarian and is doing very well. She had her reconstruction at Sloan in NY and is in remission right now from both :) :) (()) Robin ~