Wednesday, April 29, 2009

The Beginning

On Monday, April 13, I found a lump. That has to be every woman's fear, and I found one. I wasn't doing a self examine. I just happen to find it. I wasn't sure what to do. I had a doctor's appointment in a couple of weeks so I thought I would wait but a friend told me to go ahead and call and have it checked out. I made an appointment and my doctor felt it and told me to get a mammogram. I had the mammogram and the radiologist didn't like the look of it. I got an appointment with a breast specialist and she didn't like the look of it and I had a biopsy done. The results came in on Monday April 27 that the lump was cancer.

I have had A LOT of information given to me and I am still trying to sort it all out. I was told I had the most common type of cancer which was Infiltrating Mammo Carcinoma. Which I can't find that term on any website but I think that is means the same as Invasive Ductal Carcinoma.
The doctor seemed confident that it is treatable and curable but I have to take the long road to get there.

I have decided that I will have a bi lateral mastectomy. It sounds very extreme to do this but this surgery will greatly lower my chances of the cancer coming back. I do NOT want to have to go through this again.
Prayer requests:

1. Pray for Kevin because he has been so wonderful. I think God is letting me know that Kevin is that great of a person.

2. Pray for Faith and John Derrick so they understand there will be some changes going on but mommy still loves them.

3. Pray for other women who are finding a lump and are about to start this same process I am going through. Pray that the lump will be benign but if it is not, please pray for their peace.

The next part I am going to write is a bit intimate about my body so you can skip the rest if you don't want too much information but if you are curious read on.

I have never liked my breasts. I developed early and they have been a pain so I am not that sad to lose them. Since having children they have grown to a DD and my back hurts and I can't run and I don't look good in clothes.I met with a plastic surgeon on Wednesday to discuss my reconstruction options. I will have silicon implants put in (which I find a bit ironic because I have always laughed at women who wanted implants). They will start by putting in extenders to build up my muscles. They will slowly fill them throughout several weeks and when I get to the size I want and I am comfortable, they will be exchanged for the implants. This is the only part of the whole process that is interesting to me because I will have a new body. I may change my mind after going through everything but I will be smaller and hopefully more comfortable.