Breast Cancer Friends

The Maple Hill Church of Christ has a breast cancer support group.  It was started by a couple of ladies that went through breast cancer and it is open to all women who have or had breast cancer.  It meets every third Monday night of the month.  I have only been able to attend about five meetings in the last year and I am looking forward to trying be more involved.  This month's meeting was the best so far.  It was called, "The child within us."  The 4 year old classes from our Mother's Day Out program sang a few songs for us ladies and presented us with a small gift of a bookmark they made.

This handsome little boy in the middle is John Derrick and he is MY handsome boy.  He was so cute up there singing to us.  He was quite excited that night.  He got to go to his very first T-ball practice and then he got to sing to "the ladies who have cancer"  They sang, Jesus Loves Me, The Pizza Hut song (that is what he is singing right now) and The Green Grass Grew All Around.  I had my video camera with me and I managed to record the first song but managed not to record the rest of the night.  (But that doesn't matter because I haven't figured out how to get stuff off the video camera to my computer yet.)

One Year Later...

Exactly one year ago today, my life changed completely.  I know that is such a cliche but those are the only words that can describe my life today.  One year ago, I was happy just living a quiet life but that was not enough.  One year ago, I woke up after spending a long weekend at the Opryland Hotel for the Lads to Leaders/Leaderette Convention.  I was tired but Kevin closed the door to our bedroom and quietly said to me, "Mary Anne, I felt something last night."  I touched my left breast and there it was, a hard lump.  My heart stopped and I felt sick and I was scared.  I took a deep breath and continued getting ready.  I had kids to get to school and I was going to teach at Mother's Day Out.  I just couldn't  dwell on it right then.  But I did, I thought about it all morning.  I was distracted and everything I did was mechanical.  I wasn't a good teacher that day.  It was finally naptime and the kids were sleeping.  I slipped out into the hallway and was talking to my good friend Tammy.  I decided to tell her what I found.  I knew I had a doctor's appointment in a couple of weeks but she told me to go and get it looked at.  I did and after my first and only mammogram and biopsy, I found out that I had cancer.

I prayed hard for three weeks that that lump was just fatty tissue or a cyst.  I prayed that it was nothing and I could go back living my quiet life.  I have two kids and a husband who need me.  I didn't have time to do this and I didn't want to have cancer.  But God quietly told me no that I had to do this so my prayer changed.  I prayed that God would be with me through this and to watch after my kids and husband and I will make it through and one day I can hold my grandchildren.


Before last year, I did not know anyone personally who had cancer or at least I didn't know that I knew people who had had cancer.  To me, cancer was a terrible disease and it can kill.  Chemo was something that was used to treat cancer and it made people's hair fall out and that is all I knew.  I honestly thought that I could get this all over with in a few months but that wasn't the case.  I am almost done.  I had the surgeries, I had the chemo,  I lost my hair and felt the tiredness and going through menopause.  Now my hair is coming in quite nice and thick, I am getting energy back and I have new breasts : ).  I am on oral medication that is meant to keep my cancer from coming back.  Yes, I am almost done.

God has been so good to me.  I have been blessed far beyond what I deserve but it is because of God that I am here today feeling good.  He has blessed me with the most husbands, children, parents, brothers, cousins, aunts and uncles and most of all my church family.  They sent me cards, gifts, and fed me and my family, cleaned my house but most of all, they PRAYED for me.  Philippians 4:6-7 says, "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."  I felt that peace that transcends all understanding because of all the prayers that were lifted up for me, a person who wanted to live a quiet life.

Over this past year, I have experience joy and contentment and sorrow.  I have made new friends and grown closer to the friends that I have already had.  I now have three new doctors one being a plastic surgeon (just wishing insurance would pay to have some belly fat removed, ha ha, just kidding) I have been to a doctor office more times in the past year then in my whole 34 years prior to this.  I still have not been to a plain old doctor just specialists. I have had four separate surgeries over the last year and I am still amazed of how quickly you fall asleep when they give you that medicine in the IV and how completely unconscious you are during that time.  I cut my hair all off last year and colored it pink.  I had Kevin shave my hair after it started falling out.  Now it is growing back in and I kind of like it short like this but Kevin and the kids want it long again.  My children have been amazing this year.  They have not been scared and have treated me as well as they could.  Kevin was patiently taking care of me when the chemo was bad.  I also learned that chemo is not easy but it is tolerable and I could keep going after the side effects wore off.

I would have never chosen this life for me.  I hope that I don't have to do this again.  I have a wonderful oncologist whom I trust and who seems to be doing all he can.  I have faith in God that he will take care of me and lead me the paths that I need to take.  I have wonderful family and friends that love me and I love them dearly.  Thank you all.

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.  (Romans 15:13)

I Got it Done

I had my implants put in yesterday.  I am very glad that it is over with.  My skin was still a little broken out so I went by Dr. Tierney's (my plastic surgeon) office first thing yesterday morning and he left the decision up to us if wanted to proceed with the surgery.  He would have preferred that I was completely clear but I felt like I was as clear as I was going to get.  I will have to start back on the medicine that made me break out in about a week.  Dr. Raefsky's research nurse, Beth, felt like the folliculitis was caused by the initial starting of the medicine and hopefully when I start back, I won't break out again.

But I have my implants in AND I no longer have my port so it is official there will be no more chemo!  I am pretty sore and wrapped up so I haven't got to admire them too much.  I was told by a few nurses that Dr. Tierney does good work.  I was impressed that he took the time to talk to me on Friday morning before surgery.  He was quite busy that day with other surgeries. 

The kids are at my parent's house again for the weekend.  I am so thankful that they live nearby so they can take the kids so I can have a day to recover at home quietly.   So right now, I am sore and a little tired.  I got up this morning and moved to the recliner and have not gotten up except to brush my teeth and go to the bathroom.

Also, I have a wonderful church family who is still praying for me.  Nobody should have to go through this alone.

Going to Try Again

So I have scheduled my exchange surgery for this Friday, March 26.  Yipee!!!  I have called my oncologist and I have permission to not take the lapatinib that was causing my skin to break out.  Now I will take the antibiotic that I have to clear up my skin and hope for the best.  Already my skin is looking better so I will keep hoping that it continues to clear up and when Dr. Tierney sees me on Friday, he is willing to do the surgery.

Yesterday (March 19)  I had scheduled surgery to have my tissue expanders removed and have my implants put in.  I was also going to have my port removed and have my ovaries removed.

My previous post talked about the pills that I was taking.  The only major side effect that I had experienced was that my skin broke out in little red bumps all over my face, arms and chest.  I told my oncologist about it and he gave my antibotic to clear it up but unfortunately I didn't start taking the medicine soon enough to clear up the rash.  So when Dr. Tierney took one look at my chest, he did not want to do his part of the surgery because he feared that I might get an infection so we had to put his surgery for another day.

I did go ahead and get my ovaries removed since the rash was not on my stomach.  That part of the surgery went well and I am at home right now recovering.  I feel pretty good just sore where the incisions are.


I am hoping that my rash will clear up soon so I can get other surgery done.  I am hoping that I can get it done before the end of March.  Kevin had changed jobs at the beginning of the month and had to switch insurances.  We had to pay for Cobra this month and was trying to get as much done as possible before we started a new deductible.

A Handful of Pills

I went back to Dr. Raefsky yesterday for a quick check up and to get me started on the next part of my treatment for the clinical trial that I signed up for.  I will be taking a drug called Laptinib.   Laptinib is already FDA approved for women whose cancer has came back so know they are testing it on women who are going cancer the first time.  This drug is used to combat the HER2 protein.  I have to take SIX of these pills every morning on an empty stomach.   As you can see by the pictures they are not small pills.  I can take them an hour before breakfast or an hour after breakfast.  After one morning, I have decided to take them an hour after breakfast.  Taking SIX of these pills first thing when I wake up was not the best thing for my system.



On March 19th I will be having surgery again.  I having two surgeries in at one time.  First, I will be doing the exchange surgery.  I will be getting rid of these rock hard tissue expanders and receiving my implants.  Dr. Tierney will also remove my port that I used for receiving my chemo medication.  The second part is I am having my ovaries removed.  Dr. Cathy Deppen will be doing this part of my surgery.  Dr. Raefsky recommended having my ovaries removed since my cancer was also estrogen and progestern fueled.  Having my ovaries removed will put me into menopause and will give Dr. Raefsky better options for treatment. 

Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,  for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, "The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him."to the one who seeks him; The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him,(Lamentations 3:22-25)

A Good Day

So I had my PET scan done on Wednesday.  It was not painful it was just a long process.  I couldn't eat or drink anything for 6 hours prior to the scan and my scan was that afternoon so I ate a big breakfast and then was hungry for the rest of the day.  I had to drink a contrast drink.  I chose to drink what they offered there and it was lemonade and it tasted really good especially since I had nothing to drink all day.  They had to give me an IV and give me a shot of glucose with a radioactive tracer in it.  The tracer would go to any area where there was active cancer cells.  I had to sit in a dimly lit room for an hour and then I got the scan which took about 20 minutes.   Sitting in the dimly lit room was not too bad.  It gave me some quiet time to spend in prayer which I really needed.  The only problem was the contrast drink had caught up with me and I had to ask for a short break which I got and then came back to spend a few more minutes of quiet time before the scan.  I managed to stay still for the scan which wasn't fun but I managed.

I got to go to see Dr. Raefsky today to get the results.  He came in and first thing he told me that the scan was clear!  Words cannot express how relieved I felt.  I had been so nervous for a week since he called me the first time.  I knew that God had a plan for me but I didn't know what that plan was and I just had to have faith in Him.

Dr. Raefsky still was not sure exactly what he saw on the CT scan.  His thought was that maybe I had a few cancer cells in my spine that were too small for the bone scan that I had this summer to pick up.  The aggressive chemo that I went through took cancer cells and now my bones are healing.  I liken it to have scar tissue on my spine.

I asked for prayers for the results of this scan and I got prayers. Prayers were lifted up on my behalf  literally all over the world.  The missionaries that the Maple Hill church supports were praying for me, my friends were praying, the elders were praying and the church was praying.  God answers those prayers.  It has been a tough year that I wish that I did not have to go through but that was God's plan for me.  I have learned so much.  Things that I have known for a long time but I needed a refresher course.  I know the power of prayers but  I needed to see God's work more clearly.  I know that I can put my trust in God but I needed to learn to let go more and let God handle my problems.  I needed to know that God has a plan for me.

Thank you everyone who prayed for me.  Please keep praying and pray for everyone else who is battling cancer because every prayer helps.